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30 March 2008   I Was Wondering: Whose Life Is It?(Or, do we have freedom to choose?) Galatians 4:21-5:1; John 8:31-38
Bill McGraw

 

A couple of years ago I had a form in the bulletin - at the top: "I was wondering?" - invited folks in attendance that day to write their questions. Addressed four of them in a series - about a year ago. I've pulled that list of questions out again - will for the next few weeks (except April 13th) look at some more of those questions. They certainly aren't easy!

 

First question: do we have freedom to choose? Which I've subtitled, "whose life is it anyway?"

 

Personal experience:

I grew up the son of a grocer and independent business man who was himself the son of a grocer and independent businessman. My dad actually went to college to study for the ministry at the thenSchool of Religion at Butler University. Into his first year he knew that wasn't for him - he returned to the family business which he essentially ran for 40 years. From sixth grade I worked regularly following the expectation that I would enter and eventually take over the business. I went to school to major in economics - the logical major for someone planning to go into business.

Until I spent my junior year abroad. With much inner turmoil I came to the conclusion that I did not want to return to the family business. Came back to my senior year with little sense of direction - applied for a Rockefeller Foundation trial year fellowship - got it and headed off to seminary. Obviously ultimately deciding to enter the ministry.

If I were to describe that decision, I would say that it was a personal, independent decision.

Until a conversation with a psychoanalytical psychiatrist over dinner. He had asked how I ended up in the ministry. In the course of answering him I mentioned that my dad had gone to school to be a minister and ended up in the grocery business and I want to school to be a grocer and ended up in the ministry.

His comment, "It's amazing how those subconscious wishes of fathers get passed on to the sons!"

 

We certainly know how predetermined many of our life choices seem to be.

We know the power of subconscious wishes of parents being passed on to children.

We know about genetics.

We know about how upbringing shapes our behavior.

We know about social forces that impact us.

We've seen those twin studies - identical twins separated very early in life - raised in very different circumstances - united decades later wearing the same clothing, married to people with the same names, with dogs having the same names, with many, many similar likes and dislikes.

 

And we certainly hear lots of comments that suggest people believe that everything is pretty much laid out.

Poignant comment by the Taylor University student who was thought to be dead while being confused for another student - in intensive care - survived - book came out this week - on TV: "I don't know why the Lord chose me to live and not the others who died."

 

Biblical support:

Psalm 139:16     In your book were written all the days that were formed for me, when none of them as yet existed.

Isaiah 49:1 The LORD called me before I was born, while I was in my mother's womb he named me.

Romans 8: 28We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose. 29For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn within a large family. 30And those whom he predestined he also called; and those whom he called he also justified; and those whom he justified he also glorified.

Ephesians 1:4 he chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world

 

Seems pretty heavily loaded - as in Jesus Christ, Superstar: "Everything is fixed and you can't change it."

 

Except?

The best-laid plans of mice and men - and God - "gang aft agley."

 

We have to include human stupidity/laziness/selfishness.

Any discussion of human nature has to include the freedom to screw up.

 

Story:

A man brought his boss home for dinner with the family. At the end of the meal the 10-year-old son says to the boss, "My dad tells me you're a self-made man." "Yes," replies the boss swelling up with pride. "Well," said the son, "I'm glad to hear that because I don't think the good Lord would want to take credit for you!"

 

Of course, much that we do is determined -

            by race/gender/age/era in which we live/life experience/genetics/everything else you can mention.

And the good Lord knows us better than we know ourselves - which means the Lord's not often surprised.

But there are those moments - have to be, in my opinion - when the Lord pauses, folds arms and waits, "I wonder what Bill's going to do with this one."

 

Moses to Israelites:

"I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants, (Deuteronomy 30:19)

 

Paul to the Galatians: 5:1For freedom Christ has set us free?

Jesus: you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free?

if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.

 

We need lots of help:

We have indeed inherited the energy of sin; it is part of our instinctual make-up; it is, almost literally, in our bodies and nervous system?.Sin is not simply a weakness that we can overcome but rather a condition from which we have to be saved. (Robert Barron, And Now I See: A Theology of Transformation, p. 50)

 

And what we've celebrated on Easter - we are not alone in our sin.

There is an energy toward wholeness, renewal, rebirth, forgiveness - life

            that will not ultimately be lost or defeated.

 

And who - in their freedom - would not want to be a part of that??!!

 

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6 April 2008    I Was Wondering: Why Do We Have Such Terrible Wars Based on Religion?          Isaiah 2:1-4, Luke 6:27-36
Bill McGraw

 

We're familiar with

·         the ?troubles,' Catholics and Protestants clashing in Northern Ireland.

·         In India, we've seen Hindus and Muslims fighting one another.

·         Buddhists and Hindus have been fighting in Sri Lanka.

·         decades-long struggle between Muslims and Jews in the Middle East

·         attacks by violent Muslims on 9/11

 

It's particularly interesting when all of the world's major religions at heart seem to have little support for war or violence. At heart the world's religions seek to help people find peace and comfort in individual life and to live in community in public life.

Too many times I've quoted Huston Smith's summary of a lifetime of studying and practicing the world's religions: "we're in good hands and in gratitude for that we would do well to bear one another's burdens."

How do we get from that to a Christian priest in Iraq with a gun on his desk, Jewish seminary students shouting death to Muslims, the Left Behind series glorifying in the violent deaths of the enemies of Christ, and suicide bombers crying ?God is great' as they take themselves and forty other people out???

 

The first drafts of this sermon sounded like lectures based on lots of analysis of social movements, politics, economics, psychology.

Yawn!

Then it hit me: we as much as anyone know about sin.

Last week we talked about the question of human freedom - are we truly free to make decisions?

And while recognizing that there are lots of forces that influence and even determine much that we do,

            there has to be a place for human sin.

We spent many of the Sundays before Easter thinking about the forces of resistance in all of us

               that prevent us from hearing and truly practicing the faith of Jesus.

The question of wars based on religion is a question of how we use the religions of the world

            which  have received and developed marvelous insights into overcoming

                                     the things that separate human beings -

                         that can and do help people live together in peace,

in the hands of sinful humanity - people like you and me - blending together our own self-interest with the teachings of religion.

 

For a TV show about war & religion the BBC invited some scholars at the Department of Peace Studies, University of Bradford in England to do a ?War Audit' to try to determine how many wars were purely or even primarily based on religion. They came up with:

  1. Islamic expansion beginning in the 7th Century,
  2. the Crusades starting in the 11th Century
  3. the Reformation wars beginning in the 16th Century.

Beyond that: We must recognize that armed conflict is rarely, if ever, solely about religion or religious differences. Although armed conflicts may take on religious overtones, their genesis is found in a complex matrix of crisscrossing and mutually exacerbating factors such as economics, politics, resources, ethnicity and identity, power struggles, inequality, oppression, and other historical grievances. God and War: An Audit and an Exploration, Compiled by Greg Austin, Todd Kranock and Thom Oommen, http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/shared/spl/hi/world/04/war_audit_pdf/pdf/war_audit.pdf

 

In the end the way we read the scriptures of our faith say more about us than about the faith.

"If their commitment is to generosity and charity, then they'll highlight the passages that affirm this, and they'll either allegorize or bracket or explain away the dark visions of intolerance and violence." (from Regina M. Schwartz author of The Curse of Cain: The Violent Legacy of Monotheism)

There is nothing so pure it cannot be distorted.

 

When our survival is on the line - we'll do just about whatever it takes.

"The selfishness of human communities must be regarded as an inevitability." (Reinhold Niebuhr, Moral Man & Immoral Society, p. 272)

When our lives and/or our way of life is threatened, we'll react. And, if necessary, find religious reasons to justify it.

The fact that we have such terrible wars based on religion says more about us

            than it does about God - by whatever name we call?.her.

 

As one ethics scholar notes: "if we are trying to save our skin, pacifism is a very poor strategy!" (Richard B. Hayes, The Moral Vision of the New Testament, p. 343)

 

Violence is such a part of human history/experience.

I seem to remember an analysis of human history that had something like 40 years when there was not war.

It has been pointed out that violence was so much of Old Testament history that is was noteworthy for one writer to point out the times of peace.

We human beings have the capability as well as the tendency to bring down incredible violence upon one another - and our need to justify ourselves will use every argument at its disposal - including religious ones.

 

Fortunately the vision of peace among humankind is still at the heart of our religion:

Isaiah 2:4: they shall beat their swords into plowshares, and their spears into pruning hooks; nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more.

Luke 6: 35But love your enemies, ?  36Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

 

Nancy Sehested is a prison chaplain in North Carolina, and she was speaker at the Disciples Peace Fellowship breakfast at the recent General Assembly.(2003)  She is chaplain of 850 men in a medium security prison, and so spends her days with men named Mad Dog and Porkchop:  murderers, and rapists and child molesters, and guys who just messed up over minor things and got caught by mandatory sentencing laws.
  Nancy Sehested talks about the Department of Corrections being a place of unrelenting hopelessness, a place of darkness, where it is hard to see the light shining through.  The first day on the job, the Lieutenant stopped by her office.  "I'm not glad you're here, women don't belong in a men's prison, they only make more work for me and my guards," he said.  And thus their working relationship began.
  A few months later, the chaplain and the Lieutenant stepped into an altercation between prisoners, together stopped a fight.  Later, when things had quieted down, the Lieutenant stopped by the chaplain's office again.  "I know that you need me here," he said; "what I hate to admit is that I need you here."
  "You're right, Lieutenant, I do need you here, to keep order on the floor; but how do you need me?" she replied.
  "I need you here to restrain my inclination to physical violence," he answered, "I need you to show me another way, another kind of force."(
As recorded by Bob Reister in the newsletter of the Allisonville[Indiana] Christian Church)

 

Indian Christian woman Pandita Ramabai: "People must not only hear about the kingdom of God, but must see it in actual operation, on a small scale perhaps and in imperfect form, but a real demonstration nevertheless."

 

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20 April 2008  I Was Wondering?If We Know?Why are we Anxious?        Philippians 4:2-7, Luke 12:22-31
Bill McGraw

 

In the comic strip by Jeff MacNelly, which he calls "Shoe", Shoe is looking at the monument built to President Franklin Delano Roosevelt. The base of the monument contains some of Roosevelt's most famous words. The President during the depression years said, "We have nothing to fear but fear itself." Shoe studies it for a moment as if to fix it in his mind. Then he walks on thinking to himself, 'nothing to fear but fear itself. Maybe so . . . although I also worry about anxiety."

 

We all get anxious about something.

We may be anxious about

whether our outfit matches this morning

whether our checkbook will balance

whether - now that it's the 20th of the month - we'll have enough money to get to the end of the month

whether our retirement income will be enough to take care of us

whether we'll be able to afford our medication or our taxes or filling the tank with gas or even the food we need

whether we'll be attacked by sinister forces

whether we'll get into the college we want

whether we'll get the grades we want

whether we'll be late for an appointment

whether we'll die anytime soon.

whether our makeup is on straight.

Believe me this could be an unending list!!

 

So?today's question: I was wondering, if we know?why are we anxious?

If we know?why are we anxious?

 

I took that to mean: If we know that we are loved by God, that God went to the extreme of sending Jesus to teach, live and die to show us how much we are loved, that we are promised that God will care for us no matter what, that nothing - neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. - if we know all that?why are we anxious?

 

My first thought: I can't answer that question because it's my question! I know all those things yet there are times I'm as anxious as anyone else. I'm out on a clear, starry morning, I look up at all those stars and begin to think about the expanse of the universe and my small, insignificant place in it - I can feel an anxiety so deep I would call it dread.

Yet there are moments, too, when the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, guards my heart and your mind in Christ Jesus. When the moment is so deep and rich that anxiety doesn't even enter the picture. I can say with Julian of Norwich, "that all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well." 

True for you too? Anxiety and trust? Worry and peace? Fear and contentment?

So you're with me? And the question makes sense?

 

A few loosely connected thoughts.

 

Things seem less of a problem when I own them - when you own them.

Accepting/admitting anxiety begins to help reduce its hold on us. We do a lot of things to try to cover it up:

            look good

            succeed

            get honors/awards/degrees

            keep really busy

            amass lots of things.

Two problems with that:

1. doesn't admit the problem

2. don't relieve our anxiety - and we always need more and more of what doesn't work

So let's accept that anxiety is pretty much part of the human condition.

 

This knowing that relieves anxiety is a different kind of knowing.

Not like learning multiplication tables or how to rebuild an engine or the distance to the moon

            or much else we think we know.

I keep a few quotes on my desk. Here are two:

Poet Santayana: our knowledge is a torch of smoky pine

                         that lights the pathway but one step ahead

                         across a void of mystery and dread.

Poet T. S. Eliot: But these are only hints and guesses, Hints followed by guesses.

We're dealing with mystery here. Mystery doesn't mean not knowable - it means endlessly knowable. Always more to learn, never exhausted. Spiritual people are those who know that there's always just a little bit more - but not something that can be proven in any scientific/objective way.

Rahner: in this life, all symphonies remain unfinished.

What we experience as anxiety is part of the realization that we're dealing with things way beyond our human minds - and even our hearts and they eyes of our hearts.

 

The biblical response to anxiety is for folks to trust the mystery.
This isn't something that is taught by people like me talking to people like you.

It's learned in the life of faith that seeks faith even when it doesn't have it, that sometimes cries out ?I believe, help my unbelief,' that in ?glimpses of truth' sees the really real only to have those glimpses melt away, that seeks even when it does not find, that soars to the mountaintop sometimes yet slides to the valley sometimes, that doesn't lust after certitude but lives with mystery, that learns to see what is always there - which is the goodness of all things and all people and that there is no reason to be anxious.

Etty Hillesum: My life has become an uninterrupted dialogue with you, O God.

Nancy Diener: Life is just a series of doors, you go through one door after another, death is just another door.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer: I believe we ought so to love and trust God in our lives and in all the good things that he sends us, that when the time comes (but not before) we may go to him with love, trust and joy. - and as he was being led out of his cell to be hanged, "This is the end -- but for me, the beginning -- of life."

 

I'm not completely sure why we are anxious - though it seems to be part of the human condition.

I know it helps to admit it.

I know it helps to acknowledge that many of the things we try to do to get rid of it don't work.

I know it helps to see ourselves against an infinite horizon that is broader than the measure of our minds.

And I know that "I cannot drift beyond God's love and care." (Whittier)

 

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27 April 2008  I Was Wondering?Why St Francis of Assisi?
Matthew 19:16-22; Galatians 2:15-21

Bill McGraw
 

June 8th Susanne and I leave for Italy

about 24 hours later arrive at central-Italian town of Assisi

Thanks to the generosity of the Lilly Foundation and ZCC

I will be spending six weeks in this town in the Umbrian hills - and a week in Rome.

Not one person has questioned why I might want to spend 7 weeks in Italy!

But a few have asked, "Why St. Francis of Assisi?" "What about him makes him someone I'd want to spend a significant chunk of time in the place where he lived 800 years ago?"

 

Like many people drawn to what is known as the "Prayer of St. Francis:"

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen


Once in each of the churches I have served I have preached a sermon series based on the prayer - including here at ZCC from January to Easter 2001. (Statue of St. Francis in courtyard was gift to me that Easter.)

It is frequently part of my own prayer time - when my own words aren't there it's nice to have someone else's to fall back on.

While the prayer is not actually by St. Francis, the spirit and teaching of the prayer never cease to amaze me.

 

Then in the early 1980's I think I discovered the teaching tapes of Richard Rohr. That's a name you might now be familiar with because I quote him so often! He has such insight and depth.

Richard Rohr is a Franciscan friar. When you see his - or any other Franciscan friar's name - it is followed by the letters OFM - which stand for Order of Friars Minor - Order of the Little/Lessor Brothers.

So along side of my attraction to the Prayer of St. Francis I realized an attraction to this Franciscan friar.

 

About the same time I read the complete works of St. Francis - 141 pages with notes and commentary - not an overwhelming amount of material. Frankly, my first reading left me somewhat dry. I remember thinking something like, ?he's just strung a bunch of Bible verses together and I've already heard this stuff many times.'

After a couple of years I want back to the same material and it struck me: this guy is trying to live by the Bible as accurately and literally as he can! This guy really believes we can walk in the footsteps of Jesus! He's quoting all of those Bible verses because he wants himself and all of his followers to live it out!

 

And over time as I read and re-read his work - and became more and more exposed to his life and what he did - it became clear to me - as it has to many others - Francis of Assisi walked the walk, walked the talk, lived by the Gospel and showed that it is possible for a human being to live an entire life in response to the question, ?what would Jesus do?'

If there is a constant thread in what I've talked about in 39 years of teaching and preaching, it's trying to figure out how we live the Gospel, follow Jesus, in our own daily lives.

Something about the life and spirit of St. Francis cast a bright light on that search.

 

I'll share some things I've learned from St. Francis?so far.

 

?Francis is first of all saying that we cannot change the world except insofar as we have changed ourselves (Richard Rohr, Hope Against Darkness, p. 120)

Francis fasted (to the point of harming himself), had only a simple tunic tied with a rope and a kind of underwear - though sometimes he wore skin rubbing against himself, he spent days/weeks at a time alone in caves or the cleft of a rock for prayer, slept on a rock with a rock for a pillow, went barefoot even when his feet were cracked and bleeding - his style of living was so severe that when he tried to get it accepted by the pope for the group of men who were joining him, the pope refused to allow it because it was too strict!

Now if I were to extend an invitation this morning for folks to join me in a genuine Franciscan life,

            not expecting much of a turnout!

But I learn from that: an individual's primary project is him/herself.

The saints have always recognized that we cannot give what we do not have.

Gandhi: be the change you wish to see in the world

I can bring healing only to the degree to which I am healed.

peace only to the degree that there is peace inside me.

holiness only to the degree which holiness has found a place in me.

To a greater or lesser degree we are all involved in a project of trying to get the world to be arranged the way we want it - or angry because the world isn't arranged the way we want it.

If only? If only?

This is not 21st century narcissism - but the saintly realization that the battle between good and evil will be fought - and won or lost - in our hearts.

 

Our lives and our message have to be consistent.

One of the interesting events in Francis' life was when he went to Egypt to try to convert the sultan. This was in the time of the Crusades, when knights and warriors were marching to the Holy Land to win it back from Muslims. Francis was a man of peace - who truly believed that if he could get a hearing from anyone - he could convert them to Christianity. There are some who think he might also have had some hopes of attaining martyrdom - a popular image in his day. He did, indeed, get a hearing with the sultan - pretty much by walking into the camp and saying here I am. And essentially he and the sultan became friends. While the sultan never became a Christian - he warmed to this obviously sincere, peaceful, holy man.

When he talked about denying oneself to follow Christ - he was a living example.

         I sometimes wonder how we proclaim the message
         of self-denial in our consumer culture!

When he talked about giving away what you had for others - he'd done that. Often giving away what little food he had to someone he thought needed it more.

I feel challenged - and chastised - about the gap between what I say I believe and what I actually put into practice.

 

Francis was a man of joy.

Well-known Canticle of Brother Sun/of the Creatures - was the basis of our first two songs this morning. And the opening prayer.

He walked about Italy singing - songs of praise to God, songs of joy - enjoying creation and the creatures

            lots of stories/legends: asking the birds to be quiet
             so he could speak, inviting the birds to sing with him

One night when a few of the first men had gathered around him, one of the men awoke in great pain crying out how hungry he was, Francis ordered that a meal be prepared of all the food they had gathered and that all of the brothers join in the feast.

Francis was a man in love, and a man in love with the greatest of lovers. There was simply no bottom to his grateful happiness. He told his friars that it was their vocation "to lift up peoples' hearts and give them reasons for spiritual joy."
  They needed no other justification for their life. They needed no other ministry in the Church. They, like he, were to be troubadours and minstrels of the Lord. At times, eyewitnesses tell us that he was so filled with gladness that "he would pick up a stick from the ground and putting it over his left arm, would draw across it, as across a violin, a little bow bent by means of a string; and going through he motions of playing, he would sing about the Lord. This whole ecstasy of joy would often end in tears and would be dissolved in compassion"

(Thomas of Celano's Second Life in Richard Rohr, Hope Against Darkness, p. 118)

To convert?ourselves.

To walk the talk.

To be joyful.